Sunday, September 28, 2008

dao xiang

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

medley on youtube

Monday, September 08, 2008

whats wrong with the world mama

About Trust and Betrayal

Arthur Miller once said, "Betrayal is the only truth that sticks."

It really takes years to build up trust, but a second for it to be gone. I can't understand why people have to lie, especially to their close friends. I hate it when people lie to me. I'm not a saint, but one principle that I never fail to keep is that I will never ever lie to my friends, I think thats pretty basic isn't it? Friendships and relationships are built upon trust, if you don't even have the foundation sturdy, everything else just falls apart, like a shaky building. And even after the building has been sturdy for a few years, when there's damage to the building blocks, the very pillars that held the building up, no matter how you fix it, it'll never be the same again. Lying about the smallest thing in the world isn't the best excuse, the very fact that you could lie about something this trivial already shows that you can be prepared to lie for something of a greater magnitude. Remember, its not what the lie is about that matters, its about what it signifies.

Why can't people just say No?

Another thing that plagues me is, I can't fathom why people can't just say no. Its probably the number one reason why thousands of people per year die of a smoking-related disease. Humans are funny creatures, they think that by avoiding the problem, the problem will automatically disappear. The fact is that it doesn't. Get it, IT DOESN'T. The only thing that disappears is your very integrity and courage to face it. Running away is never the solution to solving your problems. I've seriously had it with ignorance, evasion and plain play-acting. Yes, its a Singaporean trait to "Act blur, live longer", only that you are going to be living a lonely life. You did not even try to be subtle, it was so blatant.

Childish, Tactless Elitism

Elitism exists in every society, to be honest I am a little elitist too, being exposed to the best schools and most intelligent people of the nation in my 6 years of study in TCHS/HCJC. I keep it in check, I do not think I am the best, I do not think that because I was at HCJC, every other school beneath me is crap and lousy and all the people studying there are useless, dumb people. I do know of many people who are like that. Now that I am studying abroad, the people you meet are really just either HCJC or RJC with a few VJC people. They are really the smartest people you can ever meet. The temptation is there, to be elitist and trample upon schools that are close behind but never there. Someone once commented to me that he looks down on people studying in NTU, NUS and SMU. All I could say was that the very reason why they were studying there was not because they are less intelligent than us, its probably because their family couldn't/didn't want to afford it. I know of tons of top-notch intelligent people studying locally. We are just rich spoilt brats studying abroad; there is no damn reason we should feel elitist and proud of ourselves.

Elitism has its levels too, but how extreme do you want to get when someone from RJC thinks that HCJC is inferior? Honestly, as I've said before, elitism is something that cannot be helped or prevented, because imaginary heirachy, whether you like it or not, exists in society today. Elitism has to come hand-in-hand with tact, to avoid unnecessary conflicts and to maintain the human-to-human level of respect. It shocking when someone bitches to you about how HCJC sucks, how its full of communist people, criticizing its policies, values and the foundations. Additionally she adds that RJC is the best, vehemently insisting that her school prepares their students for the real world and my school doesn't.

Hello, please wake up your damn idea. Its immensely childish the way you argue, it is just.. shocking. Show some tact at least. You have not even studied in my school, what position are you in to criticize and comment on the values and idealisms? I don't want to go down the road of criticisms of RJC, as that would put me in the very same level as you. But all I can say is, which you have agreed by the way, Hwachong is a community. It isn't a dog-eat-dog, individualist school. There are no politics, which was why I had a culture shock when I hung out with RJC people at LSE. I'm not generalizing and saying all RJC people are like that. I'm sure there are HCJC people like that (and sadly I know of one person who is like that), but most of the people who are like that are not from HCJC. I might be wrong, but this is the general feel I get. We are just more.. pure, agenda-free.

I won't hide it that I love Hwachong. Which was why I was part of the EXCO for Hwa Chong Night, which was why I agreed to last-minute play the guitar for the event albeit given an hour's notice, which was why I am in the EXCO of Hwa Chong Alumni(UK). I want to give back to the school. I'm forever indebted to the school, my current account balance will always be in deficit. Hwachong builds a community, and a great example is MAF. Every year more and more people come for MAF, and even RJC people join us. And we welcome them, in fact we invite them to join us. It's all part of community bonding. Singing those songs, doing the dances, really brings back memories for me. Kaihong suggested that I should write a song for the school to add to their collection, and this is what I will do. I love Hwachong that much and I'm not even shy to admit it. The Hwachong experience, it seriously cannot compare to anything else. 3 years down the road, and the fire is still burning within me.

So please show some tact when talking to me. A little respect would be appreciated.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

back in singapore

i have decided to change my blog template because i think its very difficult to read. no worries, you are welcome.

i feel the uncontrollable need to blog now because i have damn alot of things to say. nothing important i would say, just alot of random shit that have been on my mind.

anyway i am back in singapore, lets not talk about the flight. travelling for almost 24 hours is not a very nice story i would like to start with. but anyway, i have added another air stewardess to my "hot stewardess list", so its joanne huang and cristine kee now. if you guys happen to read this, please leave a tag thanks. (please do not try to impersonate either of them because i know they will NEVER read this blog.)

which brings me to the point of, sometimes when u first meet someone, theres this spark that flies off immediately. she might not be the hottest girl around, but u are just immediately attracted to her. i have experienced this 3 times in the states already, most worth mentioning was this korean/american girl who was sitting beside me while we were watching olympics. i just kept looking at her that it was awkward to suddenly start the conversation. the next day i saw her again on the way to school and just smiled at her. but that was it. i regret not getting to know her. and i think i will never get to see her ever again.

makes me wonder, do people always end up with people whom u are at first strongly attracted to? the answer is no, because its superficial yada yada. but isnt it great if u fall in love and get together with "the one"? food for thought. people seldom end up with love-at-first-sights.

ANYWAY, i am glad i am back in singapore. the states was an amazing experience, within that 4 weeks i got to see boston, washington, new york, toronto, buffalo, niagara falls and not forgetting wrentham where shopping was just great. it was very tiring though, because domestic airlines are always full of delays and cancellations. 3 flights, and i had 1 cancellation and 2 delays. very screwed up. even the bus system, its not like national express in london where u are guaranteed a ticket. they sell more tickets than they have, so if u dont get there in time and there are more people than expected, they will take the first 55 people to fill the capacity and you just have to wait for the next bus. which might be 3 hours, thereby jeopardizing your flight if you have to catch one.

thats why i am thankful that SIA is so efficient. firstly there are never delays, if there are its because of taxi along the runway which is not within their control. secondly the food is the best on any flight i have ever taken. not to mention, the service is amazing. and another very big plus point is because there are people like joanne huang and cristine kee around. and no matter how fast u run from the plane after u disembark to the queueless customs (one very important point), and im not exaggerating, cuz i was running today.. the baggage belt always beats u to it. the bags are already in circulation. unlike the leisurely stroll in the US when you get there and still have to wait like 15 minutes before the bags crawl out one by one.

maybe im just so pampered with singapore service standards that everywhere else is shitty. even in london service is crap. takes like 2 or 3 weeks to set up a bank account? in singapore i did it in less than 1 hour thank you very much. but well the states service still thrashes the grumpy londoners. sometimes i wonder whats the problem with london. why people are always so grumpy. the weather? it makes it all so dreary, especially when ure thousands of miles away from home.

and this reminds me that im still mad at US postal services because my postage has not even arrived at my friend's place in NY. i ordered an infrared filter, supposed to take 1-3 days and its been more than a week. so i sent a very rude email to them after many patient ones which didnt work. once again, singapore triumphs them all in service. its simply the best place to live in the world. clearly the cleanest, safest, more efficient country in southeast asia and i dare say the world.

though there are many things im unhappy about in singapore, there is pretty much nothing i can ask more.

oh yes, i was damn pissed off on the plane. i dont know why, but when i hear the german language i get really irritated. nothing against the country/people/culture, i just find the language very unpleasing. i think the only german language i like is the one from the german shepherd. i got so irritated that i decided to go to the toilet (obviously there was another reason i went to the toilet). i saw a queue of 4 people on the left side. i looked over to the other aisle and i saw no one. so i walked across to the other aisle and saw 2 empty toilet cubicles. hmm, makes me wonder why sometimes people are so stupid. so i came out of the toilet, walked past the same 4 people with a frown on my face, and took my seat. and there the 4 people were, still standing there. coupled with the german announcements and an irritating indian woman patrolling the aisle, i had to calm myself down.

i might be going to bangkok in september. :D last travel before i go back to london for another year of mad mugging.

im so jetlagged. 12 hours. haha. ok update again soon.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

travelling

have been very lazy to update my blog, haha i really dont know what to say. i dont even know where to start. i have a week left in harvard, and time really just flew by. final exams are due on thursday, but its not really a big deal really, i have been consistently doing my assignments and did ok for quizzes which constitutes 70% so hopefully its enough.

been travelling around quite abit. the first weekend was spent at quicy market and wrentham where i shopped, which blew a big hole in my pocket and i have been spending alot less since that week. second weekend was spent in new york city, the city that never sleeps. the buildings are really beautiful, especially around times square. the skyscrapers are aplenty; but i just learnt from the ontario museum yesterday that shanghai has 4000 skyscrapers, twice that of new york. but new york weather was really bad when we went there, it rained quite alot, and i toured the whole new york on the city bus, which was probably the fastest way to see the city. went to wall street and i could immediately tell a change in the whole pace of life over there. new york city, by itself, is already very overcrowded and busy; its packed with throngs of people everywhere. 12million people staying there if im not wrong. wall street looked gloomy, could feel the tension and stress of the people working there when i was there.

this weekend was spent in buffalo, niagara falls and toronto. we stayed within walking distance from the airport. anyway niagara falls is really beautiful, i managed to capture a picture of the falls with a rainbow. will upload it and i hope its nice! toronto was alot less than i have bargained, i have always expected canada to be more beautiful than i have seen. maybe after visiting boston and new york city canada just pales in comparison in terms of its liveliness. nevertheless i think its a good place to retire - alot of land, u can own a farm and rear horses and lead a nice country life in the outskirts haha.

anyway my computer crashed, but i knew it was gonna happen sooner or later so i backed everything important up already. but still, i lost about 500 songs which i dont really listen to (which was why i didnt back it up). but at least my documents and pictures were backed up. i think i am gonna back up my back up, so that if my back up fails i still have the back up of the back up to back up my back up. :D

am going to washington dc on friday for abt 3 or 4 days before returning to NY for 2 days (hopefully i can get to see nwe jersey!) for my flight on the 20th. will be back on the 22nd, will have a month before i go back to london to start another busy year. i am tired from travelling, but i still want to go to either bangkok/shanghai! though i think i should probably rest and gear myself up for the next year.

many things to look forward to for the 2nd year, another year of soccer with lsefc, my new home with my lovely housemates, my keyboard and guitar, lots of fun and mugging, and more travelling. there are still a whole list of places that i want to visit, and i dont have that much time, because once i start working in 2 years time i wont have the time to travel. especially when i want to work eventually in south east asia, i have to see the world now. i think i will do a summary of my travelling done this year, so that i will remember now i enjoyed my 3 years in LSE when i graduate.

okay gotta go now. will update again when i feel less lazy.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

harvard

i love boston, it is as beautiful as how augustana had sung it.

i love harvard, the campus is really beautiful.

i love the U.S., because
1) there are damn alot of pretty girls
2) the people are much friendlier here than in london/sg
3) the service here thrashes any other place i have been
4) the people here smile more
5) outlet shopping owns when ralph lauren polo tees are going at 25USD
6) the dollar is weak now because of the financial crisis (to read more visit
http://www.ft.com or just ask me, ive a couple of good articles)
7) the harvard campus >>> lse campus
8) the people here have basic manners and say thank you and are basically more courteous than some people that i know

going to NY this weekend, woohoo im going to check out Central Perk (for those who dont know its one of the most important settings in Friends). and niagara falls/buffalo/toronto next weekend. and when my final exam is over i shall head to washington to talk to barack obama and tell him to rename the whitehouse.

other than some irritating things on my mind right now, i would say im having a pretty good time. and i really appreciate how my dad helped me plan for this trip. dont know if he'll read this but i am really thankful i have such a great father. :) thanks dad.

Monday, July 21, 2008

boston

the past few days have just been crazy.

FRI 18th July 5pm CHENGDU AIRPORT
FRI 18th July 10pm CHANGI AIRPORT
SAT 19th July 9am-6pm SNF 2008
SAT 19th July 10pm CHANGI AIRPORT
SUN 20th July 1pm FRANKFURT AIRPORT
SUN 20th July 10pm NEW YORK JFK AIRPORT
MON 21st July 3am NEW YORK BUS STATION
MON 21st July 7am BOSTON BUS STATION
MON 21st July 8am HARVARD

the night i got back to singapore from chengdu i slept at 2am because i had to pack, and i woke up at 7am for a dental. after which i went straight to orchard hotel for SNF 2008. well, at least i got to walk beside dr vivian balakrishnan for like half the day haha. i was like dead tired and slept for like 11 hours on the plane on the way to new york. seriously it took me like 36 hours including walking, waiting etc to get from singapore to my harvard hall. and the worst thing was theres a 12 hour jet lag and it was Sunday 8pm when i reached harvard. School started on Monday at 930am.

i love the harvard campus. big incentive for me to work even harder now in order to study my masters here. (: goshh im damn tiredd and there are tutorials. post-exams and pre-second year mugging really sucks thoughhh. ok im off to sleep.